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Sunday, 23 August 2009

  • my tears

    when i saw my uncle lying lifelessly in the coffin
    all the emotions hit me at once
    i couldnt help but lose tears for this great man
    ever since i was little
    my mom has been telling me how smart and successful her brother is
    how much he had taken care of her, not just as a brother, but also as a father
    how much he had done for the people he love, selflessly, and rewardlessly
    we were always encouraged to work hard like he did
    but also dont forget to play hard like he did
    even thou i wasnt able to get close to him personally
    i realized that ive always looked up to him as an idol, a goal, an inspiration
    i wonder if he knows...
    seeing someone you look up to looking so the same, yet completely lifelessly...
    its overwhelming
    i am glad, nay, im sure, that hes happy to see his kids doing so well, married w great career and wonderful children
    nonetheless, i couldnt help but lose tears for this great man
    RIP my dear uncle

Wednesday, 12 August 2009

  • my (500) days

    well, def more than 500... but i just saw that wonderful movie, so why not reference it?
    its a wonderful story and i hope everyone watches it
    its a story about relationships and love
    since you havent seen it yet, ill keep quiet about it and let you be pleasantly surprised =p

    ...
    back to my 500 (or more) days
    i am happy that while i still havent reached my 500th day,
    i think i am pretty close to it, embracing it for what it is
    what hit me unexpectedly, however, is the idea of wat i wanna do
    perhaps its because its wat ive been thinking lately
    while i have no doubt about going to Europe, i do have doubts about AI...
    it's very exciting and wonderful,
    but i feel im not the codey computer geek people think i am, and need to be in order to become somebody in the industry
    i am more of a designer-engineer hybrid, i love painting w codes, but also with real colors and shapes
    what is right for me? and urgently, should i go through with the program?
    more interestingly, why do i sound like a groom with cold feet?

Tuesday, 11 August 2009

  • my video game hobby

    i realized recently that i really play game to put some focus into my life
    i generally play only during the blank stages of my life
    like the summer break, after big test, waiting on my visa (><"), etc
    when i was working and hanging out w my friends, i barely touch them
    however, games are a nice lil window into our imagination
    instead of just watching it on the latest scifi, fantasy, or cartoon
    u get to live it!!
    maybe thats why ive been getting into sandbox games lately
    even thou they generally end up being more repetitive than most linear games...

    now playing: inFamous on PS3

Friday, 31 July 2009